Inspirational post: Follow your dreams

Four years ago I went to a Yoko Ono exhibition at the Museum of Contemporary Art in Sydney. Ono’s artworks were all interactive and her theme was to encourage peace. This one artwork involved a suitcase and we, the audience, were meant to write on an envelope where in the world we would like to go and place the letter in this suitcase. On that day, I wished to go to England ad almost two years ago that dream came true!  Always believe in what you wish for and never stop trying to make your dreams a reality 



Inspirational Post: Donating Blood

So, this morning I was feeling a little down but then I received this text and it brought things into perspective. Sometimes I may not appreciate my own existence but it doesn’t matter as long as I’m leaving a mark on the world for the better, and a simple blood donation that I made saved approximately three lives!! Nothing makes life more worth living than that!


Abandon Me

Abandon me

In the dark

Amongst the trees

Within the park


Sing me songs

Of the sweet past

It won’t be long

Until old time’s passed


I promise to requite

For I cannot forget

Fate’s furious fight


I lie awake

Amongst the trees

As our relationship breaks

You’ve abandoned me.

Acne PSA #2

So, I’ve been receiving a few well-meaning comments about my acne lately (*every time I have a break out). I do everything I can to stop it and I promise that whatever you’re suggesting is something I’ve looked into. Sometimes I wear makeup to cover it up and feel good about myself because it’s hard to have decent self-esteem when you’ve got scars and spots (but unfortunately makeup usually makes my break-out worse!). Please don’t comment on acne, not to me and not to others! Maybe I’m just sensitive and other people with acne don’t mind, but I always feel worse about myself when people point out my pimples and try to give me advice about it. I want to be able to be happy in my own skin, whether I’m wearing makeup or not! So here is a no makeup photo with no filters except for the Christmas deer thingo. #psa



She died long ago

That girl in the picture frame

With her puppy dog eyes

And tight piggy tailed curls

They’ve faded into distant memories

Buried far beneath the soil

Her soul whimpers as it’s tossed

By the winds of Tartarus

No one mourns her,

No one has noticed/ As

Her body lives on

Smiling like a puppet pulled by strings

And from the deep pits of hell

She wonders if anyone will ever notice.


I don’t want to ever cry again

Knowing how my tears stab you

I love you and I keep hoping that

Everything will be alright

As you hug me tight

It’s not enough

This guilt. It’s overpowering.

I choke on my own clumsy breath

And I have this image of death

Set in my head

I scream silently

For an escape from this idealisation of escape

I will never find solace

Earth is my limbo.

Huntington’s Walk4Hope

Hey followers,

Firstly, I’m so sorry that I haven’t posted in a while! I’ve had so much going on in my personal life that I’ve struggled to find the time to do much of the things I enjoy. However, I haven’t forgotten about the blog and I’m keen to post some new content soon!

Secondly, to address the title, I’ll be doing a charity walk for Huntington’s Disease (HD) this Sunday. HD is close to my heart as my grandad passed away with it a year ago and I have loved ones with the disease. (And to be completely honest, I feel like I’ve dodged a bullet by not inheriting this and I want to do everything in my power to help those who weren’t so luck). Please, if you have some spare change, consider donating to the cause. If you are unable to donate, feel free to join in or leave a word of encouragement x

What is HD?
HD is a hereditary neurodegenerative disorder. Some of the symptoms are:

  • forms of nervous activity like fidgeting
  • twitching and excessive restlessness
  • clumsiness
  • memory loss
  • mental illness
  • difficulty swallowing and speaking

The child of a parent with HD has a 50% chance of inheriting the disease. However, the good news is researchers are close to finding a cure!

The link to my donations page is here

Rest in peace, grandad (1924-2016) ❤


Comparing DNA Testing Companies: Ethnicity Estimates


As genetic testing for ethnicity and genealogy becomes more popular, potential test-takers are wondering which company to test with. What’s accurate? Who has the largest database for matches? And so on… In this post, I’m going to explore my ethnicity test results and share what company I have found most accurate for me.

I’ve previously discussed my paper trail in great detail but, in summary, I’m about 75% English, 19% Scottish, and 6% Irish. When I DNA-tested for the first time I was really interested in what the test would show about my ancient heritage and how it would match up with my paper trail. I also had an interest in how DNA testing would help with genealogical research, however, this interest mainly grew after receiving my test results once I was able to work with my genetic matches.

I originally tested with AncestryDNA. Since then I have uploaded to Gedmatch and DNA.LAND, as well as transferred results to FamilyTreeDNAMyHeritage, and Wegene. I have also tested immediate family (parents and brother) for comparison and uploaded their results to some of the aforementioned sites.

[See ‘Conclusion’ for any disclaimers.]


The AncestryDNA results attempt to break down ones genetic makeup into two categories ‘Thousands of years ago’ (the ethnicity estimate) and ‘Hundreds of years ago’ (Genetic Communities, which I have analysed in detail here). I have found that theScreen Shot 2017-04-19 at 2.17.32 pm ethnicity estimate slightly overestimates my Irish-ness (which, despite its name, encompasses Ireland, Scotland, and Wales) as well as the Europe West region. However, this is impossible to verify since, as Ancestry claim, they are looking into a persons deep ancestry, which is beyond what can be confirmed from a paper trail. Moreover, my Great Britain assignment has been underestimated at only 9% as compared with the 75% recorded in my paper trail. Overall, it is impossible to know for sure how accurate the ethnicity estimate is since they are identifying deep ancestry, although I cannot say that it would be reliable to depend on for determining ones recent ancestry as the amounts are so skewed compared with the paper trail.

On the other hand, the [new] Genetic Communities feature is very reliable for identifying recent ancestry, though it still has some way to go in identifying more regions and assigning more communities.

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Despite all comments that may imply otherwise, I believe AncestryDNA is the best company to test with. This is due to their customer database, which is currently at four-million, the largest database out of all the testing companies. This is significant for genealogy and adoptees as, through the DNA Matches feature, you are enabled to search a larger database of DNA cousins and their family trees, hence improving your own genealogical research.


Gedmatch have a range of different admixture reports authored by different people. Different reports are recommended for people of different ethnicities, as they can be more reliable for one ethnicity and less reliable for another. One method, created by Cordue, uses a couple of different gedmatch calculators in conjunction to reliably identify IndigenScreen Shot 2017-05-31 at 9.05.19 pmous Australian ancestry.

I was advised that given my British ancestry, Eurogenes K13 would be the best admixture utility to use. The most obvious issue with this report is that it altogether assigns me 5% Asian and it leads me to believe I have Amerinidian ancestry (which is almost impossible). The latter assignment is especially problematic since many Americans hope for Amerindian ancestry and being told by a report that they have it is misleading and potentially problematic.

One stand out of the Eurogenes K13 report is that it picks up on my “1.78% Northeast African”, which is not recorded on my paper trail but has been picked up by other ethnicity tests. This consistency suggests the report is semi-reliabile.


The DNA.Land ancestry composition is very vague. Like AncestryDNA’s ethnicity estimate, it appears to search into a person’s deep ancestry, and, as a result, it is difficult to ascertain the accuracy of the composition. In some ways, the vagueness seems to imply a lack of confidence by the company in which if they use broad definitions for regions they cannot go wrong.

Also, DNA.Land is not worthwhile using for DNA matches. I know of definite matches using the system that don’t show up on their “find relatives” feature.

However, DNA.Land’s trait prediction report is interesting and worth taking a look at. Particularly, if you want to learn about your circadian rhythms, coffee consumption, education attainment, etc. While probably not so accurate, these are fun to look into.

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Pre-update I would have said FamilyTreeDNA’s ethnicity report was far from accurate. FromScreen Shot 2017-04-19 at 2.40.58 pm falsely assigning Jewish ancestry to my dad to assigning us very little British Isles. However, post-update I believe it’s one of the most accurate reports. Their placement of me as 85% British Isles, which includes England, Ireland, and Scotland, is so much closer to the 100% I should have.

[N.B: I have read elsewhere that Amerindian genetic markers are very similar to Siberian markers. I question if the Eurogenes K13 (aforementioned) misidentified me and, instead, the Siberian identified by FamilyTreeDNA is probably more likely a true representative of those markers.]

Yet, I have noticed in DNA groups that I’m part of a minority of satisfied customers with the new update. I would suggest that Familytreedna are probably very reliable when it comes to people of British origin but maybe not so reliable with people of other ethnicities.

MyHeritage DNA

MyHeritage DNA’s ethnicity report, though new, has really impressed me. The “Irish, Scottish, and Welsh” is the closest to accurate out of all tests. In fact, considering my Irish and Scottish ancestors would have shared DNA with Scandinavian, English, and European, it is probably most likely tScreen Shot 2017-05-31 at 7.17.51 pm.pnghat I’d have less rather than more “Irish, Scottish, and Welsh”. With that in mind MyHeritage DNA’s estimate of my Irish-ness should be more accurate than Ancestry DNA’s. The “English” estimate appears to be a lot less than on paper, however, when the “Scandinavian” and “North and West European” percentages are read in conjunction with the “English”, MyHeritageDNA is again very accurate (arriving at 79.6%).

[At this point, it is also important to note I have a brick wall on my maternal grandfather’s paternal grandparents, who could be French due to having a possibly-French surname; though are most likely English. In the case that they are French, this report would be spot on. Regardless, I still think MyHeritage DNA are spot on considering the English genetically overlap with North and West Europe in many historic cases, such as the Normal invasions.]


Wegene is a Chinese testing company. They are probably very reliable for the Asian market. However, they gave me the least accurate estimate. [The 0.04% represents “Chinese”.] Having seen all my other estimates and what I’ve said about my paper trail, it’s quite apparent how off Wegene has been.

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The one advantage of this company is that they attempt to identify ones mitochondrial DNA using some markers that are on the Ancestry chip. They placed me in U5a1. While I have never had my mtDNA tested, I do have reason to believe this is correctly identified.


Of course it is important to remember that the ethnicity reports generated by these companies are nothing more than estimates. Due to genetic admixture, it is scientifically very difficult to identify ethnicity with 100% reliability.

I also want to clarify that everything I have written is my personal opinion, I have not been paid by any companies to positively review their product or negatively review another company’s product. Furthermore, the accuracy of each company will vary depending on an individual’s heritage as each company has strong and weak reference populations.